em portugese: os dias amáveis

mi amor.
i woke to a bright optimistic sky streaked by sunlight
i smiled and whispered to your portrait
i confessed my love at the kitchen window
you made me a sentimentalist
you made me think forbidden thoughts like iloveyou
you made me feel and love and hope
you made me what i am today
you are my hero for you taught me
About Life
i looked as our picture and
tears slipped and
black smeared down my face
stained, glimmering
a box, a doll, saved conversations from centuries ago
pictures and memories
all i have left of you now
i still cry.
you've twisted and ruined me
bent me and broken me
the pieces won't fit back together
but i don't mind
i don't mind


Oh my god, I've liked him for nearly two and a half years. Oh my god, I am insane. Utterly insane.

I have been having a wondrous week, as predicted. Whee! Yes, I have been all smiles and sillyness and squeals and eeeeeeee since Monday. Everyone says this week's been crap for them, so I feel kinda bad. But hell, I deserve it, yeah? Thursday was his birthday, and I wished him a happy one. Teeny tiny conversation, but I don't care. 'Twas afraid to mention the carnival so we'll see. ♥♥♥

Yesterday I watched the Advanced Drama project--'twas funny and fun and cute and good. Kristine sure had a great time. :D

Today is May 14. The best day of my life was May 14, 2004. The slow dance with Michael was that night. God, I miss him.
























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