Title: Defeat
Pairing: Darkshipping; Yami no Bakura x Yami no Yuugi
Disclaimer: This story is based on Yu-Gi-Oh! and its characters and situations, all created and owned by Kazuki Takahashi.
Summary: Bakura cheats on Yami. This is the aftermath.


( Defeat )

Title: Breaking Point
Pairing: Charlie/Mike
Disclaimer: This story is based on Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and its characters and situations, all created and owned by Roald Dahl and Warner Bros.
Summary: A miserable Mike and a hopeful Charlie form a correspondence and friendship that changes their lives forever.


( Breaking Point )

Hospital Visitation Rights <-- Please watch this, no matter what your view!

Yay, icons! More to come. :)

    

( onward! )

I have a date for homecoming. :)

e.e. cummings and clay aiken and nervous voices and soft hands and gay rights and burnt hair and warm arms.

for love: the foolish things we do, the stupid things we say, the lost words that we never said

for love: the time we spend together, the time we spend apart, the time we should've made a move, the time that slips past tan fingers like grains of sand

for love.



I miss the way that things used to be, a long, long time ago.

Title: Someone to Care About
Pairing: Chick/Lightning
Disclaimer: This story is based on Cars and its characters and situations, all created and owned by Walt Disney Pictures and Pixar Animation Studios.
Summary: Lightning thinks that Chick is only using him, but Chick will prove him wrong.

( Chapter One )

( Chapter Two )

This is my response to a friend's post. But like, I'm not addressing her or anything.

There's nothing wrong with "just dying". What's so sad about it? Why must we be so greedy, wanting some heaven, some perfect life after this one? What's wrong with this life? If you make the most of it, you don't need some heaven after "this". Something to look forward to? What's wrong with looking forward to things like going out with friends this Friday, getting your paycheck, going to college, getting your first promotion? Maybe some people don't like the way their lives are now. Well, you gotta get up off your lazy ass and MAKE it better! Why're so many people bouncing in their seats, eager for The Next Big Thing, when they could be happy NOW? Why do you need a heaven, when you can make yourself happy? When you already are happy? When you know you couldn't be happier?

There's no Greater Deity, no Meaning of Life, no provable explanation of how we came to be. Who cares about any of that? But you say, what do we live for? Live for?! We live for ourselves, for our happiness, for that explosive, loving feeling you get once in a while when you're with your friends and you feel tears prickling your eyes because you're laughing so hard, when that boy you've had your eyes on talks to you, when you get to do something you've wanted to do for a long time, when you get an A on that test you studied so hard for, when that box of toys or polaroids or computer games or posters arrives at your house, when you realize how lucky you are to have everything that you have. Why are we here? We're here to live and love and learn and be.

Heaven? Who needs heaven, when we have this? Happiness? Bliss? Ecstasy? Paradise? We already have all that HERE and NOW. Some people reach for that, and some don't. The people that don't are the ones who sit here, idly waiting for That Next Big Thing. For that heaven, where everything'll be jolly great. Nobody likes waiting. Save yourself the trouble. Reach for that happiness. Reach for that moon. And they're right--if you miss, you'll land among the stars. And then you can try again. Some people make it, some people don't. Some people die without ever feeling happiness. But if they tried, then that makes all the difference. There's always some kind of silver lining, whether you like it or not. Whether you see it or not. Maybe you were head-over-heels in love with this guy in your math class and wanted him to ask you out, and so you chased him, but all you ever got was a hug and a bunch of idle conversation. Maybe you wanted to be a manager of a store, but when you applied, they gave you the lousy cashier job. Maybe you wanted to ACE this test and prove to everyone that you're not a dumbass, and you studied your ass off, but you got a B+. We're so greedy, wanting more, always wanting more. But maybe you can try to not be so greedy and just appreciate what you got, what you have. It makes you happier, it makes the people around you happier.

Maybe it's okay that you don't understand your siblings. But you'll find that even if you don't understand them, you should try to get closer to them. Talk to them more, say funny things that make them laugh; maybe they'll seem so immature and dumb sometimes, but laugh it off and then act their age! Maybe you'll feel silly, but they'll have a great time. And it's strange, but being an older sibling... When they're having a great time with you, a smile just appears on your face as well. Maybe it's the way they (unconsciously) look up to you, maybe it's the way they brag about you or something you have/have done to their friends. Maybe you'll never understand each other, but maybe you can come to an understanding. You're siblings, and in the end, they'll be the ones who will still care for you, even when everyone else is gone, even when they're busy with their own lives. It's a terrible thing, but sometimes friends come and go, but siblings are more concrete. And... I know that I feel a lot happier and lighter, now that my sister and I are on such great terms.

People come and go in all of our lives. But sometimes we meet new people, new people who make it all worth it. Sometimes we don't, but at least we still have those great memories. Maybe we all only have two years, and we'll all fall apart. But I don't think any of us are going to forget each other, or the great times we had together. Maybe we all only have two more years together, but isn't that even more initiative to make the most out of these two years? Maybe someone will walk away, maybe someone will die, maybe someone will just fade away, but in our hearts, we'll remember.

And maybe, just maybe, that makes it all worth it.

(If only the essay I have to do for summer homework would flow from my fingers so easily...)

Kelly's fondue party was lovely. :) As it seems that it can never be ALL of us (seriously, I think we're always missing at least one person [ETA: Never mind; we all hung out on the last day of school]), everyone but Mag was there. It was food galore, wow! Pretzels and Pirate's Booty and Lil' Smokies ("My weenie is covered in cheese", hee) and chicken and meatballs (squares, cubes!) and broccoli and carrots and fruit and cheese and barbecue sauce and sweet n' sour sauce for dinner; chocolate/coffee ice cream cake and chocolate and caramel and STRAWBERRIES (!!!!!!) and cake cubes and pretzels and cookies! Muy delicioso. :) Kelly's mom is un fantastic cook.

After dinner we got all sweaty playing DDR (or in my case, having epileptic fits?) changed (well, Diana stripped, hahah!) and went in el Jacuzzi. w00t. Except for Jayne, who is an insecure loser. I felt like a Sim; it was great. Someone exclaimed, "OMG, Diana, are you in your underwear?!" And Kelly said, "It's okay, she looks no different than Elaine" or something, but it was the most hilarious thing! Being made fun of by Kelly is funnier than anything. She's so hilarious. :D

Also, I was like "REALLY, he likes Keira Knightley?! You know, I'd always thought that it was so weird that a lot of guys like her. I mean she's... She's just... you know? Umm... I don't know how to describe it. Hmm... She's really...flat. And I mean, that's like, yeah, you know?! Umm." And then Erin says, "You know Elaine, if a lot of guys like her, and you're a girl, I think you're the weird one," or something to that extent. HAHA. It was like, first time ever Erin had made a joke about my sexuality, and there was a little sting there because I know what she thinks of things of that sort, but I'm glad I was able to laugh it off.

Kelly and I were talking about how everyone is so different (at my party, I randomly awoke from dozing off and said, "Dude, we're all so different!" and then lay back down, haha), and I was talking about how maybe the one little thing we all have in common is that we're able to laugh off what other people might find insulting. I mean, how many people really find it hilarious when their closest friends make fun of them for being a desperate slut or for their lack of a chest? And how many times have we laughed at Diana's constant absence and strange taste in the male species (and blatant lesbionic-ness!), Maggie's randomly stained shirts and repeating punchlines, Kristine and Amanda's crazy eating habits, Erin's manga obsession, Jayne's maleness/lack of gender, Kelly's random threats ("Don't make me punch you!") and matter-of-factness about the funniest things, and that's just off the top of my head! It's pretty awesome, yeah? That we can stay close despite all our differences? And I mean, it's not just Plaza Vista. We've all had opportunities to move on, hang out with other people (and hell, some of us have), but we're still...THE circle, you know? Or maybe I'm just delusional and nobody really cares as much as I do about us, but I mean, well. Kelly was like "Aaah!" when she opened my card to her (my classic thing is all the mush about being friends and stuff, heh), and I hope that she and everyone else knows that I really mean everything I write in those things. :)

Oh, and ala Erin: "Hello, is Mr. Kok there?"

Instead of putting my name on my cup, I wrote CARS. And at one point Diana was like, "Well, that's because I create feelings in others that they themselves don't understand" and I could've died of love! :D

Hooray, I ended up being able to celebrate my sixteenth birthday after all! Disneyland with a big group is so much fun.

So everyone met at my house in the morning and we just hung out for a while, waiting for Diana (as usual). More gifts! My friends are the best. ♥ Mag got me the big Mater plushie, a picture frame with Lightning and Sheriff on it, and keychains of the King and Lightning (which I'd planned on buying, so yay!). It was fandom heaven! Cars merchandise = ^___^ And Kelly's gift was soooo sweet and personalized. She got me a Cars coloring book (because it's what I've been raving about lately), a $15 iTunes gift card (because I buy my music), lip balm (because I love makeup), bronzer for legs (because I'm always complaining about my pale legs), and a bunch of bags (because she knows I collect bags!). Even the bag that everything was in is my favorite blue. And Kristine made me a loooovely card. It has the original! polaroid of us at Disneyland for Kelly's party on one side and pictures of the little boys she knows that I love on the other. YAY!

Went on River Run three times, w00t. We sat with an 11 year old kid, this freshman dude, and an old guy, hahah). I went on Tower of Terror for the first time--and then I went on it twice again! The first time, the lady doing the acting was like, "Are there any first riders?" or something, and I was the only one to raise my hand (and terrified-out-of-my-wits-edly!). The entire room laughed. Haha, and before that, this guy in front of me was like, "I bet I'm going to scream louder than you are" and I replied, "No way!" We argued over it for a bit and then I said, "This is my first time," and he was like, "Oh, okay, you're going to scream WAY louder than me." He was pretty cute, heh.

Oh, and when we were getting off of the boat on Jungle Cruise, the attendant said, "Be careful, princess," to me, hahaha. And when we were out of earshot, Diana started talking about how "not-so-bad" he was and spluttering with jealousy when I told her what he'd said to me. Hahahahah. :)

We left at eleven-ish and Di, Mag, Kelly, and Jayne stayed over. w00t!

( more, waffles, please! )

( pictures! )

Hooray for another successful birthday party! And Kelly's birthday party (her one in June was from her dad and this one's from her mom, haha) is this weekend, yay. (I'm never going to get any homework done.)

Rules:
1. Emphasize all lines that apply to you.
2. Tag five more people after you finish, complete with links to their sites.
3. Let the person you've tagged KNOW that they've been tagged, for Pete's sake.


( survey )

Tag: igagme, rahrahrancune, the_hoozah, pikakao, feretsberets

Sometimes I think we live for these Disneyland trips. I'm so glad I got that Annual Passport. $139 is nothing compared to the sheer amount of fun we have whenever we go. Of course, there is also the 308023895 dollars we spend on food and other random impulse buys, but hey, it's better than going to wild parties and getting drunk and smoking and doing drugs, right? :) As the days go by, we get closer, we get more comfortable with each other, we laugh more. The sheer amount of inside jokes and funny stories and teasing/ridiculing of one another--all in good fun, of course--triples. I dread the day when all of this ends. We've got two more years--a long time, and yet such a short one. Well, whatever it is, I'm going to enjoy it while it lasts, with the people I love more than anything in the world.

Mother drove me to Kelly's house in the morning (I saw a Sally--a blue 911 Porsche--on the way!) and Erin showed me her shiny new playing cards (w/ birds + facts on them!) while we waited for Diana. Picked up Amanda, headed off. Park-hopped! It's our new tradition, heh. Went on both Space Mountain and the River Run three times! Erin had to buy a new sweatshirt after the third time she got drenched, hehehe. Missed Indiana Jones, though. But the frozen lemonade and clam chowder and fish n' chips made up for it. (But not for the hole in my wallet! Well okay, I actually ended up having $13 left over! Crazy.) Watched the Electrical Light parade thing, too. Wow, spastic colors and spastic music! Awesome. Erin and I played Speed and War with her bird cards while we waited (she went CRAZY; I love hyper!Erin) and Diana, Kelly, Amanda, and Duy played with these clear cards that they bought, hahaha. They kept yelling about not being able to see the cards.

Di and I got our faces painted! At first I was like dude, no, too expensive, but then we saw some little girl getting kind of a customized one, so I was like, "OMG I WANT LIGHTNING ON MY FACE". I asked the really nice guy if he'd seen the movie, and he said no, so I asked him for just a red racecar with a lightning bolt on the side. And wow, he did a great job. I was expecting just a red blob with black wheels and a yellow smudge, but it actually looked like a car! He asked if I wanted eyes, but since I was afraid he would mess them up, I told him it was okay. (But later we drew his eyes in with Amanda's eyeliner, hahaha! Even though it wasn't blue.) He even put red glitter on it so that it looked shiny! In the pictures it looks kinda like the Rust-Eze logo. I should've asked him for a "95" on the side, too. Hee. :)

I really wanted to see the Cars Pre-Parade and take pictures with Lightning and Mater, but I was in line for the River Run when it was going on! I really wanted to just go off by myself, but since I was undecided (Grizzly River Run is my favorite ride after Space Mountain, and it's SO much fun with friends) everyone promised that they'd come with me next week to see them. For my birthday celebration. w00t. :)

( pictures! )

P.S. I got to see a MASSIVE 107503275037 FT TALL poster of Cars, and watch the Life is a Highway video in the World of Disney store with a huge, maniacal grin on my face. :D!!!!

Title: The Dangers of Attraction
Pairing: Doc/Lightning
Disclaimer: This story is based on Cars and its characters and situations, all created and owned by Walt Disney Pictures and Pixar Animation Studios.
Summary: Sheriff tries to warn Doc about the danger of his attraction to Lightning, but Doc is already in too deep.

( The Dangers of Attraction )

DISNEYLAND TOMORROW, BITCH! :D

Ummm, hopefully everyone will be in a good mood and will let me indulge in my Cars love? Cough Cars Pre-Parade at DCA cough. And ummm, Think the World of Disney store would have diecasts? GODDAMNIT I WANT CHICK. Strip's so lonely, what with Lightning and Doc snuggling all the time. Although Doc would probably get jealous as Chick might have a tendency to hit on Lightning... Well, he just has to learn to share! And I have to learn to Not Eat Lunch so that I can save money to spend on things I really want.

Sigh, how much you wanna bet that tomorrow I'll end up spending half of the money I've earned so far this summer?

There was this sweet little girl at work today who asked me for a to-go box. She had to be at least four or five, but was missing her two front teeth, just like me at that age. Cutest thing.

Cars. Wow, it's a car-ful summer. My Art of Cars book came today! Oh my god, it's beautifulllll. Now I have a Doc plushie, a Lightning plushie, a Lightning spiral notebook, a sticker book, three diecast toys (the King, Lightning, and Doc), a poster, a video game, and ethe "Art of" book. Oh man, I am awesome. I still remember what the nice lady at the Barnes and Noble counter said to me when I bought the sticker book. She was like, "Oh, would you like a gift receipt for this?" And I laughed and admitted that it was for myself. She seemed so delighted, and started talking about how great it was that I was in touch with my kid side and that she was too. (Apparently she had just bought a huge set of crayons for herself the night before, LOL.) I love the Barnes & Noble people. When I bought Brokeback (the novel, obviously), the lady started gushing with me about the movie and how beautiful it was. And she told me about how she'd read the story before the movie and had been really excited about the movie and wasn't let down. Like, wow. I swear I bounced out of the bookstore that time. :)

Anyway, more cars, except this time its RL ones, heh. Taking Driver's Ed (about time, eh?) this week. It's pretty mucha total waste of twenty-eight hours (seven hours a day), but I guess it could be worse. At least it's easy. All we do is watch vids and do worksheets and talk and eat and have a bunch of breaks, haha. Di, Amanda, Kelly and I all got 100%s on the quiz, w00t. Teacher was like, "Oh wow, the whole table, huh?" hahaha. When the scores were announced, Kelly was instantly like, "Oh no, it's so suspicious!" That's Kelly for ya. Oh, and there was this one break where Amanda and I reached the door first and refused to open it because our fingers were covered in chocolate from the Twix bar that I bought. Everyone started yelling at us and so we ran to hang out in a corner away from the others. I guess we're the nerds of the class, haha. And OMG Kayan is in our class! He looks exactly the same, but like BIG. And OLD. Haven't seen that kid since sixth grade or something. And Brittany and Chelsea, I think. 'Tis funky.

Holy fuck. Just looked at my iTunes and when the HELL did I get 400 songs? Whoa. I've got nothing on Kristine (she's craaaaaazy, man ♥), but just...whoa.

I love this kinda stuff.

You know your are living in 2006 when...

1. You accidentally enter your password on the microwave.
2. You haven't played solitaire with real cards in years.
3. You have a list of 15 phone numbers to reach your family of three.
4. You e-mail the person who works at the desk next to you.
5. Your reason for not staying in touch with friends and family is that they don't have e-mail addresses.
6. You pull up in your own driveway and use your cell phone to see if anyone is home to help you carry in the groceries.
7. Every commercial on television has a web site at the bottom of the screen.
8. Leaving the house without your cell phone, which you didn't have the first 20 or 30 (or 60) years of your life, is now a cause for panic and you turn around to go and get it.
10. You get up in the morning and go on line before getting your coffee.
11. You're reading this and nodding and laughing.
12. Even worse, you know exactly to whom you are going to forward this message.
13. You are too busy to notice there was no #9 on this list.
14. You actually scrolled back up to check that there wasn't a #9 on this list.

Title: Imperfect
Pairing: Charlie/Mike
Disclaimer: This story is based on Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and its characters and situations, all created and owned by Roald Dahl and Warner Bros.
Summary: Mike thinks that Charlie smiles too much and he hates that Charlie always smells like candy. A boy’s jumbled thoughts on the person who has changed his life.
Notes: I just found this on my hard drive and had to post it! Whoa, I wrote this last year. Anyway, enjoy!


( Imperfect )

Title: Apologies
Pairing: Doc/Lightning
Disclaimer: This story is based on Cars and its characters and situations, all created and owned by Walt Disney Pictures and Pixar Animation Studios.
Summary: Two years later, Doc apologizes to Lightning.
Notes: This is more of a ficlet than a full-fledged story. I just wrote it because the lack of conclusiveness regarding this issue bothered me. Or maybe I just wanted an excuse to write about happy!Doc. :)

( Apologies )

Nice day, in a quaint sort of way. Lunch at Spectrum with everyone, then just hung around.

Had a bunch of my favorite foods today! Sushi and sashimi (♥♥♥!!!!), Jamba juice, crepes, and shared a tiny cheesecake with everyone. :)

Stopped by Barnes & Noble and bought the Cars sticker book. Had some interesting info! Like the King's nine Piston Cups. Dayum, that's impressive.

Thanked Erin profusely for the b-day gift (the Cars PS2 game) today! It is so sexylicious. Jess and I have been going crazy with it. Oh, I absolutely need a Chick diecast! And The Art of Cars book! I looked through the whole thing, and OMG IT IS LOVE. Muuuust get. Forty dollars, but I do have the membership card thing, and a 15% discount coupon. So it'd be approx. thirty dollars. Whoa, that's awesome! Ten dollars off! Oh, and I still need to get that 195702 dollar straightner, too, grr. At least Jess is getting me the poster! And el parental units are getting the domain! :D!!!!

( pictorsz )

Tired! PV tomorrow; have to wake up at the time that I'd usually go to sleep. Lovely.